Scars and Stripes

A coil just unwound in me and it’s not like I have this need to go amymore, but a desperate want because it is what others have. Accuse me of envy, and I’ll say not of feeling but being. Everyone tells me it will be ok and we’ll get through, like they think at somepoint I’ll stop living or something, like this lively body will wear down with the force of age before my time. Your pity is only for show anyway. Don’t look at me like you’re sorry and don’t say that phrase that is engraved in my bones, all these words instilled in my skeleton for life, but I can’t complain- it is those words that made me grow and built up these joints to run and yet at the same time stand strong. Tough skin on the outside of this frame etched up with words

renegotiate

The first day I looked up into your baby blues when you dropped your celebrity, I had no idea what was across that ocean I started to sail in that moment. When your warm hand touched mine to thank me I had no idea I was shaking hands with my match. Miss Fatal Attraction, meet Mr. Sweetly Cunning, ‘til death do you intertwine as long as you both shall sway. Who knew that hand could cause such shock waves. You’ve always been just around the corner and 5 years ahead and i’ve been watching you through one way glass for some time now, plotting revenge of the hips. I had no idea it would actually happen. Call it chance and a change of events but something in the cosmos wanted Miss fatal attraction to meet her match-stick a thermometer in my mouth and I’m burning up like the fire it ignites, burning up and away into the stars. They just wanted to see how we’d stack up, to see how long we’d last, to see just how long it took and how many people we’d go through before we finally ended up together.

You're a sly one, Mr. Drench

somewhere far back in my memory

i’m on a tire swing back on that old hickory tree

with the tan house in front 

and your guiding hands push me through the air

who was i to take stock in this memory, who was i to know whats fair

when i was young you were my angel

looking after me

now looking back at all this i still cry when i hear a mother say sweet pea

as i grew older, i shook hands with a monster

who claimed you as his own

and then when the red blurring lights whirred away 

they took you and left me all alone

and its sad to feel the hatred that i have against this fight

but its this very war i wage that will some day take your life

and its sad i have to build up to this

and say my goodbyes now

but this hesitation to bring the words to lips

but its as much emotion as i can stand to allow

Forget me, go your own way

2.24.09

at 2am on the dot

I am hanging on that day, that moment

on a cold tile floor

where you first told me you loved me

it was absolutely nothing to you while you walked home 300 miles away from me

You were just thinking…

but i never stopped

It didn’t phase you but i hit a wall

and you hit the ground

All is fair in love and war. This is a battleground.

Straighten my spine

I need to realign

Straighten up

and step in time

my head is in military mode

of military code

dots and dash

lock and load

Money Bags

Check out this awesome Art Project by Stan Chisholm who I worked with in September on his community project called Money Bags

Here are a few “one-liners” attributed by him

Knuckle Crack Symphony

Pigeon with peacock dreams

leave nothing behind, not even a legacy

counting down the stops to home

in the city full of people, I’m all alone

[[He’s so young, he does it on accident]]

18andcounting18andcounting18andcounting18andcounting18andcounting

Speeding through the tunnels in the ground

I’m enclosed by sound

Too much to hear over the rumble of steel and sparks

Oh beautiful baby, you’ve left your mark

Take me back as I once was between lines blurred and makeup smeared

We don’t click, we don’t flow, but we fit like puzzle pieces cut of 1,000 pictures

The skin fits around my bones

as tight as we do

Choose the life you live-> live the life you lead-> lead the life you choose-> (now press repeat)->